She probably wouldn't get it.

I think about the blog that has suffered without me everyday, but I always fight from writing because I have so much to talk about all the time. I'm back home for the summer, I need a job desperately though. I don't think I mind being home though, except.. I've become afraid of what people think of me. I've never felt this way before, it is a first.. Everything is different and I'm not around to keep up my reputation, I guess. Many of ruined that for me. I guess I will thank you all....-.- Moulton talks, believe me, they believe anything they hear and the rumors spread to people that you don't even know. It really has helped me to not believe everything that I hear, and not to pass on anything until I know it is fact. But really, I have over exaggerated the situation.. no one talks about me as much as I think, except one. And that one has put this fear in my head. Besides the "talk," Emmie and I rode around the other night, and just hated it. Speake has moved into our school, and I feel that we have lost touch with most or just don't know anyone anymore. It really sucks, I am still excited to be home though, to see Lindsey, Emmie and Austin, etc. I hope this summer will be what I need, because overall, I haven't really liked this past year. I kinda feel.. lonely? I don't know, that sounds stupid. But, throughout all of high school, I had a boyfriend that I was serious with. CJ and then Ian. And now, it hasn't been that way for about a year. I'm okay being alone, and I haven't felt any real attraction to anyone, but I kinda miss having someone there to always hang out with, watch movies with, etc. It's been a nice break but bring on my soulmate, haha. The Wall of Fame has been coming down lately, I can already feel a small relief of my past not being brought up again everyday. It's nice. Can I be done now? It's a sad day, and I'm not feeling this entry..
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