A new post. This just gets easier and easier. I've continued on with my strange mood. Everyone and anyone that I don't particularly choose to talk to, gets under my skin. Moving past that though... Today my cousin, Katie, sent me a message comparing how she felt when she went to college to how I felt. And, honestly, it was very similar. So, I wonder, how many other people feel that exact same way? Yes, I realize that I was never the only one, but in certain circumstances, because no one ever told me, I just thought I maybe was the only one. Like, an example.. friends. When coming to UNA, and now still, I'm not sure if I feel that I will ever have best friends like Emmie and Lindsey. My closest friends here have been Jordan, and Jessi. Jessi and I did hang out more, but Jordan because she is my sorority sister. But neither friends have felt like Emmie and Lindsey. I haven't went to either one of them crying or asking for advice, I've done all that on my own. Later in the message, Katie told me she eventually did find amazing friends in College, and now they are the ones she calls when she needs anything. I'm not sure if I even want it to be that way.. I've always felt so close to Emmie and Lindsey. But, I don't keep in touch like I should, and I also don't call them asking for advice. It makes me wonder if everyone has that feeling, that they won't find friends that match up to their high school friends, and if so, why don't we talk about it? I think I will ask next time I talk to Jordan. Maybe I just don't ask advice because I don't feel like anything has been that important to ask about. That makes sense. My time will come. In other news, today was lame. I've been sick, and wishing that my car would work properly, but ya know. School is out in 29 days, thanks to Julia's whiteboard I know this information. I really hate that, and I shouldn't. But, when everyone leaves for summer, I'm not sure how well I will keep in touch, or how well anyone else will. That really sucks, because I do like the people that I've met here. I don't like what some of the people stand for, but I do genuinely like a lot of them, whether they like me or not. We'll see how that goes. Until then, I'm just hanging on to the present, and that's how it should be. Not rushing anything, just enjoying what I have now.
-You should know who I am by now.
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I've always felt this way. I felt that college was going to be my big break. In all honesty, I never had a friend like you, Alex. You were the best friend I've always hoped for. I love you and I'm glad I can call you my sister. The friends I have made here will never replace the memories I had in high school, but I must say, they are muucchh better. :D
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